Its been a while since my last post. Lent by association went well. I succeeded. Well, almost. I succumbed to the call of pancakes. and started Lent by association all over again. from scratch. In total I went 9 weeks without chocolate, cake, sweets etc. (apart from the pancakes). So in the end I succeeded. Well done me. It was great, I felt great. Then I went hog wild on cakes, sweets, chocolate etc for the next two weeks until I felt like an utter fat goober. so. I then decided. no more cakes, sweets, chocolate etc again for another 2 months. LOL. I just love to punish myself I guess. so I'm doing that at the moment and its going rather well. but that's not the purpose of my post.
Life. Thoughts? I'm confused. i thought I'd found myself and bam, life throws a curve ball to make me re-assess my entire being and what I was put on this earth to do. I just finished a teaching degree and was so certain that's what i wanted to do. then i start a job teaching 7 y.o's and I didn't enjoy it. Realised I wanted to pursue older grades, high school. so now next week I'm about to start a small job teaching high school kids and what am I... ? scared shitless? I met the class, and learned that this is not the idealistic world I had imagined. its going to be tough. a kid threw a bin at a teacher for christsake. this is not what I became a teacher for!!! So if I don't want to teach primary, but I don't want to put up with this bullshit in high school, what does that leave me as a teacher? I don't know. who am I as a teacher? Where do I fit? am i even meant to do this? these are questions I have. I'm confused. What is your story?
